i wonder why, often, i stopped writing here
i know the main reason is all the conflict left my life
well, not all of it, but the romantic conflict left and i am now very happy with burt in our new home.
i have never been so comfortable in a house, it really is a home. and my releationship with burt is wonderful... just what i had been waiting for.... all my life
i suppose the main reason i stopped writing was because no one will read this but me.
the few people who used to follow my trials and tribulations now know i am happy and no longer follow it.
and i also think i probably dont have much to write that is inspiring or worth your time.

so i sit here on a beautiful sunny day, watching the little yellow finches on the bird feeder, waiting for burt to come home so we can go to lunch.
my life is so different now, so much better and so much more..... real.
going to go fill the bird feeders now... so my new little friends will stick around.