i feel as tho i have nothing to write anymore
and this saddens me
i love to write and i used to live for this blog
writing everything i was feeling
every little bump along the way was written here for me
and for you
who ever you are that might be reading this still

i am happy
so very freakin happy with burt
never happier in my life

and josh
well, i will survive with him
it is only a few years before he becomes a human again
and we will get thru it

work is work
but no drama really to speak of
and is this a bad thing really?
i dont know

how i loved to write in this blog
i would wait to get to my computer and just pour my soul out on this page

and when i started getting to know burt
i wrote
and wrote and wrote
emails to him
at a certain point i knew
this was the one for me
but even now he and i dont even write that much anymore.
we are together so there is no need to write.

but i still feel the loss of writing
and i can still write but i have a block
no drama .... no writing..... dilemma
hmmm
well, i will continue to write when the mood hits me and hopefully something of substance will show up here someday