wow
do i still have a blog?
wow

i never write anymore
things are going so well for me these days
nothing specatular, just regular old really great normal :)

got to the cape and spent time staring at the water, enjoying my guys
got to see sally but was not able to see sharyn or marcia.... next time i hope

this is the last official weekday of my vacation so i am spending it doing nothing exciting, just little bits here and there and coloring my hair
off to get josh soon to get ready for spending the weekend with burt.

life is good

so there i was
thinking that all the creativity has gone out of my body these days
thinking what i was like just one year ago when i started this blog
and thinking of one of the reasons i started it
caleb potter's blog
and i went to go check the big green page as i do every day that i go onto my computer and there is black letters .... caleb wrote on the blog himself
wow what a great day
what a great thing for me to see, to read
this boy (man) who had such a horrific head injury (among other things) who i feared would not make it some days
there were his words on the blog, i think for the first time other than a few words he typed a long time ago.
it was very uplifting to read his words and to know that he is out there appreciating me for reading what his mom has to write about their lives.
and i do
i do appreciate it all
cheers to caleb
and cheers to me
for making it thru a very long year with a very tough start
for cementing some friendships
for realizing my potential
for accepting my flaws and trying to deal with them
for braving the storm of what ever came my way
and for landing upright
in the end of the 12 months
with a wonderful man who is all i ever wanted
and who treats me with kindness and love

the road has been a long one
seems like much more than a year
but i am a much better person for everything that i went thru
for all the feelings i felt and all the tears that i shed

and thank you
for anyone who still reads my words

vacation is so close
i can almost taste it

it is so odd for me since i met burt
everything just works
everything is just natural with him
i dont count days any more till i can see him because i can always see him
i dont keep track of months with him because it does not matter, we are together and we want to be forever, so who cares how many months we have been together.
we always look to the future, we dont look back and dwell
the future is bright

josh and i dont fight nearly as much these days since fluffy is gone.
i know that tensions ran HIGH with all the problems that were caused
now they are not there anymore.
very odd and very sad but it was time

vacation is the cape, as usual
and we leave on saturday around 2pm and will get there by dinner
and we stay till wednesday
just a short vaca but i look forward to being with the man i love at the place i love so very much

looking forward to it.
very very much