WELL....
here i am
i'm back.

so much has happened
but in a nutshell, i broke up with jim and started dating a wonderful man who thinks i am 'all that and a bag of chips' :)

it was a hard few weeks, i was growing closer to my new man and growing further apart from jim. i was realizing that jim really did not have the time in his life for a girlfriend, and when he did have the time it was all on his terms.
no one liked that i was in this relationship, no one.
and as time went on they all told me so. some louder than others.
and the point hit home

in the mean time i was getting to know this new man as a person, as a wonderful needy person just like me. needing companionship but not necessarily a date.
we got to know each other, inside and out, not litterally but we got into each others heads pretty deep. it was amazing to get to know someone in that fashion. mostly email, facebook.
i could tell there was something there and yet i knew the situation i was in and that i needed to keep my head straight.

as time went on we really started to fall for each other. it was the best feeling in the world. it still is.

when breaking up with jim, he understood the situation and told me he knew that i deserved more. he told me that he loved me and he told me that he would miss me.
it was very sad, i have not cried that much in a long long long time..... it seemed i cried more than when mother fucking pete dumped me.

but since that day, it has been like a window was opened and fresh air has come in, blowing thru my mind, clearing the cobwebs. letting the sunshine into my head.

i dont know where this will lead. as most times i dont know..... but i am riding this wave as far as it will take me. hopefully for the long haul.