well i am home with fluffy, waiting

josh is at his bass lesson and at 4:30 i will pick him up with the dog and head to the vet

to have her put down at 5pm

this sucks

pets bring such joy to your lives and when it is time for them to go, it sucks

when we put morgan down it was very hard, she died in our arms and she was my very first baby, i had her for 18 and a half years

hobby went with scott in the divorce and he ended up having to put her down because of some disease that she had, he got another cat named callie and she lives with joan in stafford now.

keesha (fluffy) has been with us since josh was a year and a half. we always thought that they were the same age because the vet thought she was under 2 when we got her. she was a stray running loose in bloomfield. we got her at the pound. paid $35 for her.

when we went to have her fixed we found that she had already been fixed and healed very well.

when she tested positive for heartworm we had her treated.... twice.....

she has been here every step of the way with josh and i.

today i bid her goodbye

her legs are in very poor shape, she has lost all muscle tone in her back half. she has a hard time standing without falling over or leaning.

she has trouble with stairs and she has accidents.

i know this is the right thing to do, sure we could keep her for another month or two but it would only prolong it.

it is something no one ever wants to deal with, but as keesha's humans we have to take care of her and do what is best for her.

so i just took her outside for the last time in this apartment

and i took a few pictures of her

and i gave her a piece of cheese. (she has not had any food other than her dog food in over a year just to keep her stomach regular)

so as i send this off to the internet, i will go downstairs and give her another piece of cheese and we will get in the car to pick up josh.

she is a good dog

i will miss her very much.