i miss my kid
hard to believe this is the same woman who just a few short weeks ago was screaming at him every morning to hurry up and get ready and screaming about grades and wishing the freshman year to be over.... but he has been gone away to camp where he works with cub scouts all summer long.
aside from the one week we took for family vacation a month ago, i have seen him one day a week since school got out.... and i miss him.
i get to pick him up tonight around 8:30pm and he will be asleep by the time we get back to windsor i guarantee!!
he gets his retainer tomorrow and his blues band is playing in the town center from 1-3 pm i wont be able to stay and watch tho, i have to go back to work.
after they play maybe i can spend some time with him before he has to go to bed and get up and be brought back to camp at the crack of dawn on saturday morning.
BUT camp is almost over and the last day is next tuesday.... i am excited to get him back in my life.... granted i will be screaming at him again in no time, but right now i miss him.

and then school starts the following week... and then it begins again.
thinking of school makes me sleepy already. last year was alot of work for both of us.
i hope for a better year this year.

i find myself working very hard these days at work and when i get home i am not working very hard here, and i guess that is ok too.
i have a few things that need to get done, pay a few bills
but i dont feel much like doing anything. this week we have watched a few movies and i have made dinner and cleaned the kitchen up... but as for anything else.... i am out of it for now.

i am glad when i write on the blog, at least i feel i have accomplished something other than every day.... day to day.... stuff.

lately i am worrying about college, how am i gonna pay for it....
i worry about the paperwork involved and the research
and the forms to fill out.... eek! i hate forms!
i worry about scholarships and if he will get any and how to apply and what school he will go to and if it will be a fortune or only a half a fortune...
he is going into 10th grade and i know i dont have to worry too much right now about it but i am... and i do...