so i just finished my book
it was really good
i once again have a fondness for molly ringwald
in the end of the book she touches on 'what did you want to be when you grew up'
and it is really only a few sentences but it had reiterated what i have been harping on myself these last few months
what do i want to be, what do i want to do
i am still not really sure
but i do enjoy reading and never have the time to do much of it
i think i will start with trying to rearrange my days
not much i can do with the my work day
it is what it is
but before i go to work and once i get home, that time is mine, and i can arrange it and do what i want with it.
this summer it is easier because of the time off from school, josh's school i mean, and the enforcement of homework etc etc which drives me insane
but in the summer while he is at camp and the few weeks after camp before school starts i still have time to just relax and get into a regular schedule.
if i can do that, maybe i will be happier
i would love to cook dinner every night, i like a home cooked meal better than eating out unless it is something i really cant cook well.
and it is cheaper and better for us if i cook in.
i would love to get a grill and maybe we will purchase one after we get back.
i would like to have time each day to exercise
and do some stretching like yoga etc, i think this will be good for me
and i would like time to read
and time to do a craft or paint a room in the house each week.
these are all things to think about
i can try to put them into action
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today's poem

In search of...


A bumble bee flies past my window
the row of sea spray roses outside had
mostly all gone by
the low shrubs covered with the
plump pale orange rose hips
only a few last roses of summer remain
funny how they are the last roses of summer
yet it is not even the end of July yet

the bumble bounces
from branch to branch
to find a rose to dive into
he finds a group of three
he dives in
whole body completely engulfed in the roses
pretty bright pink petals
he rummages around in there
in circles
gathering the stuff he is looking for
then he hops out and tries the next two flowers in the cluster
the other two obviously do not have as much content as the first

while he is bustling around
he disrupts other bugs from their slumbering spots
he is on a mission
when he is done with these three flowers
he moves on down the line
looking for one more
last rose of summer