todays poem was actually written a few days ago
i am not feeling this way today but i did want to post it
tomorrow i am back to work and i am not looking forward to it, but it has to be done and i will just try to take my new stance on things starting tomorrow
i will get up early and exercise
then off to work to do my very best in the time i am given
josh gets his braces off tomorrow and then i bring him back to camp tomorrow night
i will do some house work every day but i will also leave time to play and time to write
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anger rises in me
pulse quickens and then heat fills my face
I try to calm down and I usually can
but sometimes I have to say what is on my mind
sometimes I have to speak the words that will make me feel better
when I do this I wonder if I am wrong
I wonder if I should have just kept quiet
but when I am angry, I cannot help speaking my feelings
and I know that I might anger someone else in the process
but I have to show my emotions somehow
I cannot hit someone
or throw things
I need to express how I feel with my words