well we are home
at least josh and i are home
burt left about 2 hours after we left but i expect him home soon
again i feel that all the wind is out of my sails now that i am home
i hate that feeling
back to the humdrum

burt is home now and we are putting things away slowly
we are going to meet jean at Angelico's lake house and see a band called
asylum hill. it will be nice but i dont want to stay late
just a short visit with jean and hear a few songs, maybe get something to eat too.
josh rode his bike to a friends house around the way and he is supposed to be home by 6:30... it is currently 6:27

i do have some inspiration here at home
i have the back yard with the birds and bunnies etc
it is like looking into the woods when you look out our back door.
but the ocean is really what inspires me, although it really didnt this past week
i only wrote
maybe i didnt take out the paints because it was so close in the cottage and i didnt feel i could spread out like i needed to.
i am self conscious about how my painting looks and i dont really like people to look over my shoulder while i am painting and there certainly would be few people there to make a comment or two.... even if they were good comments, still they would be comments.
it makes me self conscious and makes me not want to paint unless i am alone.
silly