so i sit here waiting for the 5 loads of laundry to be ready to switch over
and i think of where i am "at" right now.
i really am in a good place
but i let my emotions rule me sometimes.... when there really is not need.
for instance... today i have not gotten to speak to jim much only a short time this noon time. he had to work today.
he did read an email that i wrote asking if we could be together on new years eve, he replied that it is a hard night to get a sitter but he is trying
i replied that i know he is trying and i dont think he will get one but that is ok, i understand. but he did not reply to that one and i have called a couple times and left msgs and no reply then either.
this is not the end of the world. worse scenarios have happened than this. but i let my head run ahead of me and i worry that something is wrong and he is upset with some thing i said or wrote, which is ridiculous. but i worry anyway, and i will continue to worry till i hear from him and know all is well.
which i know in my head already that all is well, i just let my head run.
i kind of have an i dont care attitude today. josh and i just went to dinner on money i should not have spent. i am trying to stick to my diet but something in my head is telling me to have a rum ball instead.
just that kind of mood i guess.
new years is just another night
if i cant be with him, it is not the end of the world at all.
maybe we can be together the next day instead.... who knows