well i have a wonderful boyfriend, i am here to tell you
sure i dont get to see him as often as i would like but i suppose that maybe that is god's plan for now,
if the flood gates were opened at this point, and we were able to see each other all the time, mabye it would be overkill for us.
things have a way of working themselves out.
yesterday he was supposed to be able to come see me but then his sitter backed out at the last minute.
he was upset with himself for mentioning it to me because he thought i was really upset (which i was but i told him it was fine) we had planned for me to come see him after his daughter was asleep (which i still find funny because at any time that i am there, she could wake up and see me and then he would have to introduce me....) and then a half hour later he called to say he was on his way over. i was so pleasantly surprised.
he showed up with my christmas gift which consisted of beautiful flowers (i have never gotten flowers for xmas before) and godiva chocolates, shower gels, and gift certificates galore.
i felt very pampered.
he loved my gifts to him as well. it was a great visit and even though it was only about an hour and a half... it was worth a fortune to me to be able tobe with him on his birthday.
i am really lucky
i never would have thought i would have a man who likes me this much and treats me this well.
i know that he loves me but he does not say it, i think it goes with the whole 'waiting' thing... i think he has been hurt too many times before.
i am grateful for the things that i have gone thru because if i had not gone thru them all, i would not be where i am today.
every time i see a match.com or eharmony.com commercial i smile.... it really can work.

so the holiday is over and tonight we have a little gathering of people who are on facebook and who graduated from windsor high in 1983 that are getting together for drinks at 5:30....i want to go but am scared.... but i know some people who will be there and i look forward to it too.... funny to be scared and look forward at the same time.

i am debating going to spend some gift certificate money..... but do i want to brave the crowds?