its over
all the gifts are give out and received
all the traveling is done
all the merry has been made
all the food has been eated.... and i mean ALL the food
all the christmas is over.....

except for one

jim.

i cant wait to give him his gift, and see the look on his face, i put so much time into it and i just cant wait.... and i have to wait.
last i knew he was being santa one last time for the year at a dinner for needy families at 2:30.

now i am faced with 3 days off and who knows when i will get to see him.
his daughter already went to her mothers for few hours today, naturally it was when i could not possibly go see him, i was about to leave for willimantic.
this angers me because if i did not have a commitment with josh to go out to sherry's i would have driven to see him so freakin fast!
it figures, the first time that piece of shit has seen her kid since october and i cant get away.

so that makes me grouchy....

and i am stuffed with every peice of food that passed within arms reach of me in the last two days.... i did go to the gym but i still feel giant.

and that makes me feel grouchy too.....

and i have no idea when i can see jim, i said i wanted to see him on his birthday (tomorrow) and he said it probably wont happen. he was kinda grouchy too the last two times i talked to him....

and that makes me feel grouchy in return.

all in all it was a nice christmas.... but i miss my boyfriend.... and i am a bit grouchy.