getting some much needed cleaning and clearing out done
it is like clearing cobwebs from the corners of my mind when i am able to throw out things that mean nothing to me anymore... whether i have moved on from it or i just have not touched it in a year or more or i just feel the need to toss it and i will feel better.... it just makes me feel good to do it.

and i find things, like my last registration for my car that i KNEW i got and paid for but lost the envelope with the sticker for my car... 2 years ago....
or sometimes i find change to add to the change jar
or sometimes old mementos from josh that help me remember how cute he was when he was small.

new events in our lives.... josh is about to embark on possibly being in a blues band with other youths and maybe, just maybe go to memphis in february to play at the international blues society.
nothing is written in stone yet, we are just going to meet the guitar player and his dad on thursday so the boys can meet and jam and see if they have the same playing styles etc etc. he is 16 and goes to school in manchester. the drummer is 15 and lives in mass near the cape.
who knows how it will all turn out, but even if it does not materialize, i am excited for him to play with others and keep up with his blues training.
this was all suggested by zeke of all people.... he is the only guy i ever broke up with that is still my friend. maybe i have just gotten to a point where i am adult enough to accept that too.

it is like with facebook. i look at these people and i dont suggest that i am their friend because i think "we only used to talk in grade school they probably dont remember me or would not have any interest in talking to me" but i have found that this is not true. we are all adults now and have similar interests and are going thru similar things. i think it is great that i am able to connect with people i never thought i would see again in my life. that must just be the sentimental part of me talking. i know that is not for everyone.... but i am glad for the connections i have made, and hope to make more.

i saw rene yesterday at the ortho and we got to talking about a reunion... since there is not going to be one this year (25 years whoo hoo) we thought maybe we would try to set up a meeting on facebook of who ever is in town on a particular weekend and pick a spot and say 'stop by for a drink' and see who we get.
even if only a few show up, at least we tried.