so what is it about the weekends and me?
i heard from jim yesterday around noon, was going to be working in the yard all day
now it is almost noon sunday and i have feelings of dread again
what if he got hurt cleaning the gutters
what if he lost his phone again
no replies to vm or email so far
why cant i just let it go, and let god do the work for me
sure he might be really busy but hell, does it take that long to just shoot me a hello email so i know you are not hurt in the hospital
so i have a party at jeans today for lizzie's bday. i have a spinich casserole in the oven that i am bringing with me.
party starts at 2
just wish i would get some sort of contact from him
sometimes this just kills me
and i dont think it is anything really obvious. i think it is underlying because i am resentful that i dont get to spend weekend time with him yet.
i think if i saw him yesterday or if he was setting it up so i could see him today... then i would not be so upset
but when i dont hear from him all saturday and so far all morning sunday, i wonder, and wondering does not do me any good.
there could be a very simple explanation.... really tired last night and missed my calls, got up late today and busy so far
very simple explanations
but my head just spins and runs and makes me think things like
he is hurt in the hospital
he lost his phone
something 'happened' last night
anything.
everything

but i know that i am a strong confident woman
and i can survive this.
i think the main thing is if he is hurt and not able to use his phone
no one knows to call me.
shannon does not even know i exist.

so i will say a prayer that he is not hurt and just busy
and i will hear from him soon to let my mind rest