so jim took a step in the right direction, got a sitter to come to the house and was able to come out with us on monday to the tiger to see josh play and he got to stay with me for the night too.
the big steps here are A) got a sitter for the night B) told the sitter who is a good friend that he was on a date... which means that people know about me now, kinda :)

it will all come together, for now, i am not worried at all.
he is gonig to relatives for thanksgiving, maybe next year we will spend it together.
i have to work today and i am not in the mood at all. there is so much to do to prepare for tomorrow and i cant start any of it until i get out of work tonight at 5
i pray to god there is nothing on my schedule that i have to do at 5, no time, no time at all for anything but holiday prep!