i miss my boyfriend
it's official
he has been sick and not himself
but also i got to see him 3 times last week and yes i did go to see him on monday night but it was not for long and we barely got time to talk cause he was not feeling well
i want him to get better so i can see if he still likes me as much as he used to cause it is hard to tell when he is sick
does not talk on the phone much and kind of out of it from being groggy

i tell myself that i can deal with this and i truely believe that i can, i have been thru much harder times in my life.
but i have a hard time seeing the end of the tunnel and i wonder how long it will be before i do see it.
this is still really new and he is protecting his daughter, but .........
i still miss him.
i think if he was feeling better he would have tried to come up for lunch this week...
i dont know, maybe it is also because i am not feeling so good either lately
and i am pretty grouchy.

bought everything i need for thanksginving last night, spent like ....over $150, that is alot for me for a party! but $50 was the package store and that should last me a long time.