i am crazy

so the reason i did not write again today (yesterday) was because the realtor called me at 4 and wanted to see me and i just got home
i was able to voice alot of the things that i have been meaning to say
i explained to him what a psycho i am when i dont hear from people i care about... how i immediately think the correct thing, but then my mind starts running and i think if horrible scenarios
it turns out he just went away for the weekend to mass with his daughter and called me when he got back in town
the phone was shut off yesterday because he was taking a day off
i asked him if he screens my calls and he said no
i told him that he really needs to work on calling me back, he said he knows and he was sorry about that
i commented that we never talk for more than 8 minutes and we never finish a conversation

i talked to him about a few other things that have been bugging me
i asked if he is really asleep when i call at 7 or 8 and he said yes, but he wakes up later on, i said call me then, i am up till midnight most nights
i told him that because we cant see each other that much, we really need to use the phone. he agreed

i feel much better because i thought he might have gone away or to the lake to get away, and he was not avoiding me at all

he took me for a ride in his convertible mustang, it is loud and fast and i loved it
he took me to dinner but as usual i was not hungry
and we spent alot of time just being together and talking
oh, and he did forget it was my birthday, he thought it was next week for some reason. he felt horrible when i told him and he said happy birthday about 10 times when we were together today.

i have to work on my breezy
but i also have to trust my gut with this one
it is usually right