so i get a little down when i cant see jim
we are both so busy and i am busier than i used to be
before if he called i was able to just shoot out and see him for a while
but now with scouts and church and the float and mom and jewelry, i will not be able to do it so easily.
still hoping he can go to the wedding with me but who knows about that.
i am prepared if he cant... but i really wish he could
right now i am waiting for a return phone call which i may not get
last week he spoke to me every night before bed.... not so much this week.
and i always have in the back of my head, maybe he will call and say he does not have his daughter....but most times that does not happen.
i do wish i could be with him more, but like i tell him all the time, he is worth the wait.
i know that if this lasts and i think it will, by this time next year things will be totally different for us.
it is just getting to that point
i know that this is up to him, not letting me be around his daughter
and i know it is because he has learned from mistakes made in the past.
but i think of the holidays without him, and that would suck.
and his birthday..... i just want to be with him more than i am
oh well, such is life.

i colored my hair today so i will look spiffy for the wedding and i tried on the dress and shoes... they look good.
i made seared scallops with browned butter sauce for dinner.... yummy.

now we have to go to scouts, it is my turn for snack and laureen wants help with board of review so i am there for the long haul.

if he calls, i will still find a way to get there.....