new day

today
i have to do month end
argh
i hate month end and we have a new billing clerk
i hope it goes smoothly

i have a new feeling on this new day
i am content and i need to find a way to keep that and believe that
everyday

i need to keep my breezy about me
it is so hard to do
i am going to see my counselor next monday
i hope i can gather some thoughts enough to be able to work on this with her

today i have no issues, seems odd after a few days of having nothing but issues

josh stayed home last night and cleaned his room about halfway
he did a great job
he has more to do but i am so proud of him for the work he has done so far

today is the first day the cello goes to school this year, we are letting it sleep there for the week this year because it has to come home every other day and there is no way he will practice it every night so it is going on tues and coming hom thurs ... or monday thru friday.... and he will have to practice on the days it is here.

i am going to go do my hair now.... this calmness in my head is odd.... but i like it.... i wish i had it more often.

oh by the way when i told one of my friends i was in portland last night, their reply was 'oh dear god'
they did not tell me what they meant by that but i wonder how many of the rest of you are thinking the same thing? and why?
hmmmmm

well tough shit if you are.... i am happy
and i got to talk to the realtor about the things that were bothering me, now we can see if he makes a better effort....