it is so weird
i am at a loss for this blog
when i was going thru all the match.com crap i had so much to write about
my feelings and the stupid things other people did
but now i only have lame things to write about

this was started to get me thru the break up with fucking whats his name (better known as the mother fucker pete) and it did help me get thru it, along with friends support and alot of wine.

then it was meant to help me with the strange new world of online dating... and it did. it was a way for me to vent about the crazy shit that happened on the dates, and the crazy way people were in real life after talking online or the phone for days.

i like the way by the end of the 3rd month i was 'ms. cut to the chase' and shot out emails and tried to make dates right away
i had the lets just move on mode in my head
pick em and weed em out.
that last weekend when i was emailing random people who did not live to far away and were cute and did not sound like psychos.... hoping beyond hope that at least one of them would chose to email me back..... dontcha know jim (aka the realtor) was the only one who did immediately.
i shoulda known right then :)
it would have been so much easier if my profile was still up but i had to keep it down cause of the professor.
but in the end, it all worked out just fine.

today is filled with stuff for me
lesson at 10
then help laurel pack at 11
then take josh to dinner at rainforest to celebrate.....HE MADE STAGE BAND!!!! whoo hooo!!
then i might go see 'asylum hill' they are playing in simsbury at the maple tree. but i wont go alone, only if jean is going too.
tomorrow is open house at church and i am making the punch... so i have to remember to buy the stuff for punch.
then i have to get josh to sage for the parade in his class A
then i will go hang out with the mcleod's to watch the parade.... that will go to about 5 and then we will go home.... unless i am forgetting something else... which i might be.

i am concerned about sally, she is quite down right now and i wish i could be there for her. but i know she will be fine, she is a fighter and a trooper and she will get thru this and things will be better on the other side of it all.

sometimes there is so much stress in our lives and we just dont know what to do about it all.
my stress right now is i hate my apartment, i wish it was different, i want to clean and maybe rearrange things. but not today, today is to help laurel
i think i have to come up with a cleaning schedule for myself
it is not like i live in squalor.... dont think that....
i just have alot of clutter... would love to get rid of the clutter.

so josh is up now and i am going to do my hair and have some breakfast.....
then the day starts....