like i was telling patrick last night
i am not feeling like i have to write as often these days
because i am feeling very content with jim and our relationship
that is what this whole thing started out as, me trying to get over one relationship
get ready to be able to have another one and then
finally the search for the person i might be looking for.
now that i am content, in a relationship, i dont feel the venting is necessary anymore

with the wedding and the float i was just so stressed out i could not find enough words to fill a paragraph, and now that that stress is over i dont have that either

so i guess i will ponder what to do with the blog now.
i am sure i will continue to write but it is not nearly as dramatic anymore
and i truly hope that i am with jim for a long time to come, so that there is no need for any drama

i guess i can sit here and think of things that are bothering me that i might want to continue to work thru with this blog.... because it is a journey to self, no matter how bumpy the road may be.

1) when will i get to meet his daughter and become a part of his daily life.... dont get me wrong, i dont want to move in with him.... i want to stay near mom, and stay in windsor for josh.... but mostly for mom.... but i think he thinks that is the 'next step' but we never discussed it.... so i think in the next month or so i will casually drop the hints that i need to stay in windsor as long as my mom is around.... stuff like that... so he does not think that my goal is to move in with him.... maybe someday... but certainly not now, certainly not in the next year cause i am about to sign my new lease.... i think if he knew that, maybe it might take off some pressure of meeting his daughter.

2) continuing to get to know him, it has only been 2 months, and although i know all the baggage, it will still be fun to continue to get to know him as a person, and he get to know me as well.

3) getting my act together at work, cathy is back this week and i hope that by the end of the week i will have my head on straight. my next vacation is in november, not going anywhere and i hope to get to play alot with jim during the days when the kids are in school.

4) getting my personal life in order..... meaning my living situation, i would love to rearrange and clean, i would love to move into a smaller storage space, i would love to reduce the amount of crap i own in this house.

ok so i have a few things i need/want to work on and they might provide good venting/ranting/writing materials

off to do my hair.... i wish it did not take so long to do.