so i am getting closer, i almost had the opportunity to meet his daughter last night
this part of the relationship is very stressful for me because we want to be together but he has this wall up
i am so hoping he lets it down soon

going to scout tonight, i am not in the mood
i think i will be non-existent for a few weeks after tonight.
i will drop and go

have a craft fair saturday that i need to get ready for
i want to help laurel pack but it seems i never have time, going to try to squeak in an hour or so tomorrow night before the challenge open house

i am tired tonight but still have hours to go before i can rest
good bet i wont see jim tonight
have a call into him.... it is funny we will talk and email during the day but in the evening sometimes he is hard to get ahold of, and i need to just shrug it off cause it is no reflection on me, it is just when he has most of his appointments with clients and tenants

i am in the 'post visit' depression but it will pass soon, i know it.
i told him about that and he says he has it too.
it was nice to be with him last night, comforting

the next few weeks will be tight for money for me. have to pay the rent and that will take two weeks paychecks to scrounge it up.
hopefully i will sell some jewelry this weekend and make up some pocket money.
had to use the credit card for the first time in a long time at cvs tonight.... pissed me off but i did it anyway.

off to scouts soon