today i wanted to focus on two words.... 'thank you'.
it is important to me in this turmoil i am going thru to remember to say thank you. thank you to all the people who actually are standing by me right now, being supportive even though i am still crying at the drop of a hat and still feeling broken and down. thank you to lisa steadman for writing the book 'it's a breakup not a breakdown' which has really been helping me realize i will be fine. thank you to the universe for letting me get a fresh start, a clean slate, a new beginning. thank you to my ex for giving me such wonderful love for these last few months and letting me know that i can be loved, and letting me experience a really great person like him as well.
it is hard for me to start over like this. it is hard for me to get to know me. i am not really comfortable with me yet and i know it will take time.
it still hurts that i cant call him but i know that if i do i will be doing him a disservice because he needs time to think and get to know himself as well. it hurts that he has not called me and said 'i miss you too much lets get back together' but i know it is much too soon for that and he may never come back to me.... which hurts even more.
with all this hurt in my heart still it is very hard to be able to be thankful about anything, but i have to remember the good stuff and plunge forward each day.
i am about to go to work, busy day, lots of stuff on my desk from yesterday, but that is a good thing, i can keep my mind off other things if i am busy all day at work.
here's to another day, something to be thankful for.....
2 comments:
You may feel like you don't know yourself, but we all know you, and we know that you're a great person. Once you find that out, you'll be happier!
thank you for writing this. i try to start off everyday by being grateful for the things i have. have you ever read the secret? i don't buy into much of it, but i do think that putting positive energy out into the world brings it back to you. :)
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