no jim today
could not get a sitter
still not ready for me to be introduced
i was upset, but mainly cause i was looking forward to it so damn much

i am over it now, helped laurel unpack all day and it got my mind off it
will go to jean's party in a few minutes too

i am so sick of people asking me where he is and i always say he has his daughter
i am so sick of people telling me i am wasting my time
i really like him, and it has only been 3 months, i really think he is worth the wait
i just hope the wait is not too long.

said he will make it happen for tomorrow so i have alternate plans for josh so far.
have not heard from grammy jean about lunch so i guess we are off for that event as well
josh wants to go to the cemetery to see his dad, but not sure if that will happen tomorrow or not.

i hate being alone in the apartment, it is lonely and sad.... and messy....