so all i can do is continue on the way i have been
all i can do is be myself
all i can do is continue to care and give 110% as i have done since day one

my fear is that he will feel he does not have time to give a relationship
and he will break up with me
this is a big fear for me
i have never met anyone who makes me as happy as he does
i have never met anyone who really likes me, all of me, for who i am

i hope that the past three months (almost) cant be erased
and that he still wants me in his life

i debated my good morning email to him, typed 3 versions, one supportive, one worried, and one treating today like any other day and wishing him a good day and tell him i am thinking of him and cant wait till we can be together again.... i went with the third.
why is today any different than yesterday... it's not really.

so i will move on and hope i get alot done today at work, wait to see how he is today and deal with it from there.
i have alot in my head and it is swimming around and i am feeling like i want to cry
i just want to take a deep breath in and focus....