so i saw jim today
told him how i was feeling and he told me i was crazy to think like that
he told me he would make it happen today and he did
i got reassurance from him that he still is attracted to me and still wants to be with me and i told him that i was worried that he would never let me into his life.
he reassured me again that it was totally him and it has nothing to do with me or who i am or how i act or anything like that. he has been hurt before and he is just waiting until he feels more secure i guess in his head.
he is still crazy about me, and misses me when i am not with him.
we had a nice visit for about 3 hours and i am happy with that.

been playing on facebook and trying to scan some pics from the wedding so i could email them to jean and jim.
it worked but my scanner is crap.

i dont look forward to work tomorrow, i still have piles but i am getting there.... will have to do payroll first thing.... ugh!