ok so i decided not to tell jim about the blog
at least not yet
jean convinced me that this is a good place to vent and i might need to vent about him
so .... best keep it between just 'us' for now :)

mom has to have another procedure, problems with circulation in her legs apparently
she has to go to a vascular doc next week and will probably have an MRA, like and MRI but different, how so, i have no idea yet.

i asked what the treatment for this problem is and they said there are many different treatments and they depend on the specific results of the MRA so again, no idea what the treatments are.

i tend to freak out about mom.
i am the doctor/nurse/nutritionist daughter in the family.
i worry about her. i dont want to loose her
and every time she has a procedure i know that she might not come out of it.... either the same, or come out of it at all.

i look at jim who misses his mom so much, when i tell him how i get angry with my mom he tells me, he understands cause he used to get upset with his mom too but now, he would give anything in the world to have her back aggravating him again.

looking around me again i am disgusted with the unorganized mess that i live in. i wish i had the time to get it together. working 7-5 m-f is a pain in the ass. you never get anything done.

ok i am done being grouchy, gonna go surf for a while.