if i had to look back and see something that i have learned from past experiences that i want to bring into this new relationship, i suppose honesty is probably the key to it all.
if you are honest from the start, you can always count on that.
when you first meet someone, how do you know they are being honest anyway.
it is all in their character. i have meet people who i thought were being sincere and ended up taking money from me and never paying it back.
i have met people who i thought were being honest and they ended up cheating on me.
so how do you judge a book not by it's cover but by it's heart and soul... especially when you have just met them.
i dont know... it is hard... but i suppose i have to let my heart decide.
this man seems very nice, very sincere, very honest.... i cant help but to believe him. i have no reason not to.
so i will believe him and trust in what he says.... i have to if i want it to be the start of a good relationship. i think it is, but i am being so cautious to give my heart away again. it was trampled so badly last time that i do not want to go thru that again.
so i take baby steps and see where they lead me.
normalcy, that is what i want in life. not the crazy upside down life that i tend to lead. the normal that i yearn for is held within a relationship with someone who kind of completes me. i have never had this even though i thought i did at the time... not even with freakin whats his name.
so baby steps is how i am going to get where i need to be. baby steps until i know that i am safe to give my heart away.
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