bitter

ok so here's how i feel. a few glasses of wine into the wind. this is the most sincere a girl can be right?????
it is in his court. there is no fucking way that these people are keeping him so busy that he does not have at least two 10 minute breaks and a lunch and a dinner somewhere in there... and helllooo, i am the queen of going to the bathroom to make a phone call.... they dont follow you in there too do they????
anyway.... the ball is totally in his court and i am not calling or texting or emailing again until he does.... it has been since friday at 10am since he has last called.... he had a migraine and all that jazz and i have no reason to not believe him but for god's sake.... make a phone call to the girl who is crazy about you!!

anyway... i have missed writing on this blog and i needed to do it tonight. i am totally missing a relationship and was hoping for what i needed in scott but at this point i am just not so sure about it all.
there certainly is enough to keep me busy in my day to day life. this weekend i have had hardly a moment to stop and think.... never mind be sad or lonely.
the scout coffee stop is keeping me busy that is for sure.... and josh and shopping etc etc.

i have decided that what i want is someone who is TOTALLY into me. i know that is alot to ask but i give so freaking much it would be a refreshing change to have someone totally into me, making all the first calls, texts, emails.... coming by, asking me out.... all the good stuff.
why is it that i am always the one who is into the other person more than they are into me????

i am sick of that. what is wrong with me that someone cant be into me?
whatever!!
can you tell i am just a BIT bitter??