hmmmm

this is how i want to feel again.... alicia keys says it best
Some people live for the fortune Some people live just for the fame Some people live for the power yeah Some people live just to play the game Some people think that the physical things Define what's within And I've been there before But that life's a bore So full of the superficial Some people want it all But I don't want nothing at all If it ain't you baby If I ain't got you baby Some people want diamond rings Some just want everything But everything means nothing If I ain't got you
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i need attention and i fear i have found a man who is a loner, maybe just used to being a loner for the last 11 months because there was no one there... but i need more attention than i am getting. i know that there are circumstances that i cant control in this situation and i hope that they are resolved very soon so we can get on with the getting to know one another part of this whole thing. the connection is still there but i need the time to be alone with him to get to know him better.

my head is like cotton.... fluffy and full and soft and squishy and i cant wrap my head around anything these days. i cant focus on anything past 3 days from now... it is too much for me to handle.
i hope that the crazy slows down for me and lets me breathe soon.

so here i am waiting for a phone call and it is already 10pm.... i need more attention than this but i think he is capable of it, just not able to give it right now.