how can this be?

i am in awe of this whole internet dating thing, as it has produced for me a connection, a spark if you will.
i have met someone whom i have had so many connections with in the last week, it is unbelievable.
you know me, i fall hard and fast, so i am holding back like i am pulling on the leash of a great dane trying to run after a cat in traffic
i could give my heart away, so easily, but i am holding back because.... what if.
what if i am wrong
what if the connections and feelings are false
what if he is not as he appears to be
what if i get hurt again
what if someone else has even more connections with me (i cant possibly imagine it but ...what if)

i dont want to pass by someone else because my eyes are focused on him
but i dont want to lose him because i am trying not to get too close too fast.
it is all a huge mystery to me.
and i dont know which way to turn right now.
so i will continue to go straight, straight on thru to the other side
and hope that on the other side of the worm hole that is this internet dating thing i will come out happy, healthy, wiser than before and maybe just maybe i will be able to be loved again by someone.
and be able to love in return with the reckless abandon i want to love with.

maybe just maybe this whole thing will work out for me and my gut feelings are true
maybe i will be happy ... that would be a wonderful thing.