3 weeks

i dropped josh off yesterday for 3 weeks at roger williams college... he is going to have a blast.
as a mom i just pray he remembers to take a shower.
i am texting him now, he wants me to mail him his bass and amp... i told him it would be cheaper to drive it to him next weekend.
i hope he says not to bother :)
oh well... he just texted and asked me to bring it... i said we will talk about it later when he calls me.

a guy i emailed randomly two weeks ago on match emailed me yesterday to say he was busy at work and wanted to keep in touch... that made me feel good.
and i decided that today or tomorrow i am going to call harley guy and tell him i had a nice time and would love to get together with him again so we can continue to get to know each other.
in this day and age it is completely normal for the woman to call the man... so even though he did not reply to my email (it really did not require a reply) if i call i will get a better idea if he really does want to see me again or not.
i still dont understand why if he did not like me, would he talk to me for that long. if he did not like me it would have been easier to just cut the date short, but he didnt.
hence... me deciding to call him anyway.

why not
what have i got to loose
nothing at this point.
i have about a week left on match and yahoo and will be glad to see them go for a while.
breaking the connection with these sites will be good.... i still to this day hate that you can go online to check to see if there is anyone better....

and i still dont see what the hell is wrong with me that men dont want to see me again. what is abrasive about me, what is unattractive about me, i will work on it if i only knew what it was!!