grouchy

ok so here i am
a new day
harley guy definitely has signed on since i sent the email and did not reply... that sucks cause i really liked him
when someone i really like, does not like me, it dashes my hopes for finding someone.
i honestly think i wont find anyone for my future on these sites.
i will be glad to see the sites go next week, at least for a while... then it will all be on me and the phone and regular emails.

i have the professor.... who i have not spoken to since saturday night.... saturday night...... it is thursday morning.... i think i am the only person he is seeing... how can he think that is enough? it's not. the next time i see him i will have a talk with him and see where it goes from there.
i dont think we are looking for the same things at all in a relationship.

i have the blues guy who i am sure i will love his personality, but not sure about physical chemistry AND he lives an hour away.

i have harp who wants to keep in touch but never emails or calls.... hmmm.... how can these people be THAT busy?

i have a new one from portland, he does not have a nickname yet :), i know very little about him but he was interested in talking. BUT have not heard back since my last email yesterday.

there are 4 other contacts that i made but the people have not been on the computer in the last 3 days.... so those i wait for.... if they sign on and dont reply or if they look at my profile and dont reply, i just knock them out of the list.... that is the way it goes here online.... pretty rude actually. i usually always reply even if it is a no. my profile is still up on yahoo so they have something to look at, it is down on match so if they reply to my email on match it is slimmer odds.

i feel fat, i know i am only about 4 pounds heavier than i was several months ago, but it is enough to make me feel fat. the only way i will loose it is to eat very little carbs each day for about 2 - 3 days.... but i am always so hungry.... it never works out for me :)

off to finish getting read for work.... i am sick of being alone... sick of not having someone to love me.... sick of it i tell you!