frog

a little post before i go to sleep
apparently maybe one of my coffees today was not decaf
i just watched a movie and i am still pretty much wide awake.
it is 12:30ish

i am enjoying the realtor so much
he calls.... he emails..... he is a checker in-er
i LIKE that
it is still all too new to hang my hat on but everyone can tell how excited i am about knowing him
everyone says i have not been this happy since pete (freakin whats his name to those of us in the know)
i am excited to see him this weekend and get to know him better and spend more time with him.

i still dont know if he is a player, maybe he is seeing other women along with me, maybe he is still active on match

right now, at least in my head, i can feel kind of confident that i am the only one, since he has had his daughter since sunday and i was with him friday and saturday.... but you never know. he might meet someon he thinks is way better than me. and that would be his choice and i would just have to dust myself off and move on. because i will be damned if i am going to try to convince someone they should be with me.

tonight i deleted my match bookmark to make it harder for me to look... i printed his pics i dont need to look online.
it will only hurt me to know he is still active.
still looking while with me, either now or in the future.
but like i said to jean, it is no different than him going to dinner and picking up the waitress.
and as jean pointed out to me, i am free to pick up the waiter as well.
i know i just dont want either of those things to happen

and i am far too old fashioned for this online crap... we knew this the minute i started it.
right now i see a man who i am attracted to, is funny as hell, very sensitive, a great father, a great businessman and he likes me
he really likes me
and that, above all the rest, is what i am most happy about.
he could be a reptile without a job and if this particular man still liked me.... it would make me very happy
i keep thinking of the toads and frogs.... and wondering if this is the frog i have been waiting for while knee deep in toads.
still too soon to say, but i really look forward to finding out.