thought process

good day
busy day
missing josh
spent time with the professor
sent email to all contacts on match
that my subscription is expiring
gave real email address... see what happens
very nice with the professor but i still feel it is
moving very slowly
which is fine
was re-reading some old mails to dumbass patrick
and eeyore today
hmmm how very odd it all has been so far
sometimes i think of the professor and think
i could really hang out with this guy for a long time
it is a nice fit
then i wonder if he possibly feels the same way about me
sometimes i wonder if that is what he is looking for
or if it is just someone to date rather than spend part of
your life with
i think that is why i am keeping options open
and i keep active with my friends
like i said before
i am perfectly fine living alone (with josh)
and dating
i am fine dating the professor
i am fine dating anyone
i dont think i will really feel that i can be
exclusive with the professor until he can express that to me as well
i am pretty sure i am the only one he is seeing but i cant be sure
no one can
and he is the only one i am seeing as well
but i dont feel that commitment type of feeling yet
we have to experience so much more together i think
in order to feel those things
and i am fine taking my time
i think the longer it takes
the more sure i will become of how i feel
and who i want to be with