assuming

see the trouble we get ourselves into when we assume things
i was assuming that the professor was no longer interested in me, and his account was active, and i would never assume in a million years that he gave his account to his friend,but he did, the guy changed the profile and everything.
the professor assumed by answering my email 4 days late with about 7 words that this would be just fine with me
he also assumed that he would catch up with me when he could and that would be ok with me... and it wasn't

i am looking forward to seeing where this goes now
i voiced my opinions to him, how i was feeling and what i need from this relationship

it is up to him

i think the fact that i contacted people is going to help me decide if the professor is right for me or not. like i said to jean, i find it very hard to believe that i will ever find anyone who can have a conversation with me like the professor does. his words and his intelligence is the main thing that attracts me to him... and how he works out our feelings while we are talking about a subject.
that is something i have lacked all my life and i realllly want to see where this goes... and honestly if i never saw his account active on match, and if he did not ignore me (apparently unintentionally) for 4 days.... none of this would have ever happened
so it is good for me to have expressed how i feel about his lack of contact with me, but it is important that we dont throw away the ground work, the foundation of a relationship that we have already built.

these other guys might be younger, or act younger or might have other minor qualities that the professor does not have, but in the end i dont know if they will have the emotional quotient that i need, that he has. this will be good for me to figure this all out.