reflection

i think i am actually catching up on my sleep, i got to sleep by 10 last night and the night before and i feel much better today.
looking forward to the weekend when i can see the realtor again.
with everyone else knocked out of the picture now, there is less 'action' meaning no more constant emails and juggling.
but when i think of him i get a good feeling.
and i know that if it does not work out, i will be ok, and better off for knowing him.
i look at myself, i look into myself and i know what i am looking for, and the person is not magical or non-existent
i just want someone who wants to talk to me, wants to be part of my life, someone i can look forward to seeing, or speaking to.
a friend and a lover
i guess someone who has all the redeeming qualities that my past boyfriends have had.... and not all the bad qualities.
i truly believe this person exists and i will find him.... maybe i have.... who knows.
too soon to tell, but off to a great start.
i know that when i talk to him i make him feel good, and he makes me feel good.
he asks about me, and seems to care.

i am glad he has a daughter and can understand single parenthood, not so much as a divorced dad, but more like what i am going thru because he has her so often.

i know that i would love the next one to be the last one.... silly dream that i have.
i would love to have someone who really wants me... as a person, as a woman, as a partner
and that takes time, lots of time.