discouraged?

well i dont really think i am discouraged... i think i am sick of all of this
patrick asked me last night if i will renew with match or yahoo
definitely not yahoo, it did not yield anything that lasted
well, eeyore
could have been good under different circumstances
and if i do go back to match it wont be right away

the way i look at it right now, i have 3 contacts
bongo was on yesterday and never replied to anything i had written
sometimes when people meet someone they dont know how to deal with the others that they have 'open' on match so they just ignore, not too nice
i would rather have a short email telling me they found someone else
actually i have weeded it out down to the blues guy who is on vacation, the harley guy who did not write back to me yesterday at all, but he might have been busy :) and the professor.
all other contacts i had have given me the impression they are no longer interested because they have been on match since i wrote and decided not to write back.
i contacted 3 more yesterday and one immediately said that he had met someone and wanted to see how it pans out... the other two, nothing yet.

i have looked and looked and unless new people sign up for match in the next couple days, i think i have done what i can with match for right now.
so the blues guy sounds like alot of fun but i dont think i will be attracted to him
the professor is intellectually wonderful but not available enough for me... i fear that is what it will come down to
the harley guy i think is shy and getting him to make that first contact will be tough
i got him to email but.... if he was online yesterday and decided not to contact me, i will weed him out of the group too, and that would be sad cause i was looking forward to meeting him.
so....
back to the drawing board with less options.
i will definitely take a break from online dating when this expires... if i am left with no one at that time.... then so be it.
i have no one in my circle of friends i would even think about dating.... all too young, or taken.... and patrick would have to be in a parallel universe.... way too good friends to ever date.... but i am glad we can be there for each other every day anyway :)

missing josh, he will be home tomorrow night for two days then off for 3 weeks.
taking care of the dog is getting to be a drag
having no one around the house is getting to be a drag too.

off to take my shower and get ready for the day
i dont hate my job
i hate that i have to go to work .... not really, just wish i could get the same pay for half the hours :)