update

so because the professor still does not have alot of time for me, i feel that i have time to explore my other options.
so far 2 of the 4 i sent my real email to have gotten back to me
this is a good ratio and i have a good feeling that the other two will as well when they get back online. these were just the midnight computer people apparently.
that is ok, so am i
i am feeling really good about where i am right now
i know that the connections with the professor are huge but the time he is able to give me and the amount he is willing to let me into his life is very telling... maybe it takes time for that to happen or maybe he is always like this.
i still dont know if he is just looking for someone to date and be intimate with or if he is looking for his future, like i am
so i know that if a few more weeks goes by like this with not alot of contact i could see myself getting sick of it.... but we shall see.
i mentioned again last night about the real email address and he could have just told it to me right then but chose not to. that bugs me.
he knows that my match is expiring but not when exactly.... in my head i am giving it time.... like a little test... lets see if he passes or not.
so the p.t. from enfield got back to me in like 3 seconds, and the blues fan that is travelling got back to me over night.... then we have bongo and fanofthe9ers, again both from enfield left to reply. bongo has not been on since before the weekend, not sure what is up, he is the one who was supposed to meet me on saturday night at the concert but never called. and 9ers is on his computer all day cause he works 3rd shift so he will see it soon i think he gets home at 8am.
the blues fan is for naugatuck... that one probably wont work out.

anyway.... that is my situation today..... kinda glad the subscription is expiring, when i cant see that people were on 'looking for someone better' it will take a huge part out of the picture for me. might make it worse... who knows.