oh well

and then there were 3
well it appears, being nancy drew i can figure this shit out on my own, that harley guy did in fact go online last night at some point because the computer did not switch from active in 24 hours to active in the last 3 days (it does this when you have not signed on for 25 hours or so).... so that means that he saw my email and decided not to reply. which i kinda thought he would reply either way .... but i guess not.
unless he saw it at 11:30 last night and decided he would call me today or reply today or check his schedule today... but most likely .... it is the case that he did see the email and is choosing not to reply.
again, i have no idea why someone would chat me up for so long and not like me.
and again, what was wrong with me that he didnt like me. i barely spoke, didnt have much time too while he was talking.... and i thought i looked pretty enough for a date.....
whatever.

i am just depressed again because i have the professor who is 1/7 of a boyfriend (i am basing it on the amount of days a week i get to see/talk to him)
i have the blues guy who i will get along with but probably wont be physically attracted to and he lives too freaking far away
and harp who i cant even get to call me or email more than 7 words... but he still wants to keep in touch.
the two i contacted on yahoo ignored me too.
men suck
relationships suck
i am sick of all this trying, it should be easier.
it sucks cause i really liked harley guy and was attracted to him as well... but apparently something about me wasnt right for him.
again, maybe there is the slight chance that he might be planning on getting back to me later... but if tomorrow comes and goes, the answer is for sure.

i used perfumed body wash and matching perfume today, i found the body wash when i actually did some cleaning last night of my medicine drawers. so i did get something done.
patrick and daniel called me out for beer last night at chilis.... in simsbury!! i went anyway cause i was looking to get out and see them... but it was a haul for less than an hour's visit ... and i still did not get to bed before midnight because i was checking to see if harley guy had answered or been online.....
if i was stupid and only had email to check.... it would be so much easier, but i am not stupid and i do check all the other avenues to get my answers.

josh called, he is doing well and having fun, wants me to bring his bass and amp and i told him i might be able to do it on sunday morning... he is checking to see the times that parents can come visit.

i am too busy for all this men crap.... but i was hoping by the time josh went away this summer that i might have a new fling that wanted to see me alot. i just have a partial fling who wants to see me when he has time.... which is rarely.

time to go let the dog out and finish my makeup.....