again

ok patrick and jean assure me that there is nothing that i did or said that would have pissed the realtor off
and even if i did.... if he is pissed at something i did, then he is not the one for me
i KNOW that i did nothing wrong

why do i persecute my self like this

he is great, he likes me and it is going well.
i dont know what to say or do
i know i cant call again.... i already called last night and this morning.
if he dropped his phone in a toilet again i will email tomorrow and will find out then
if he does not answer my email tomorrow, then i will just worry that there is something wrong with him or his daughter.

i pray please god please end this misery in my heart and have him call me.
i like him so much and i just want this to work out.
i am tired and the day is only half over.... thinking of going to the pool and read a magazine.... if i can get the energy up to put on my suit.