sleep... what is that?

actually i did get some sleep last night from about 1:30 till almost 6

so he did call me at around 8pm and i went over till 12:30
we had another great conversation and some alone time, much needed after 2 weeks
god i hope it is not another 2 weeks now
the good part is that he missed me and told me that i was a 'rare find'
i know how he feels about me and it is just getting stronger and growing all the time

i did find out that the last girlfriend did not get to meet his daughter for 9 months.
wow
well, now that i know, i will stop trying so hard.
but that was probably 9 months of pretty steady parental visits from the mom
not like what we have been experiencing
so i guess i am more at ease about the daughter thing now that i know it will be months
i dont think he waits for it to get to the next level with us, i think he waits till it gets to several levels higher, he has his reasons and i respect that.

i am still bummed because it is most likely not going to happen for my party on sunday, in fact i am already prepared to not see him for another stretch of time.
it is so great when we are together, he kept saying he was so happy that he was able to take me to lunch yesterday and next time he will clean up and put on a suit for me. i told him that was not necessary at all. i like the person inside the clothes, and it did not matter how he was dressed.

i wrote him a short email last night and i will probably leave that for the morning mail he will see when he gets in. i hope to talk to him on lunch and see what is up with him for later on.
this relationship is growing and i am very happy.
even though i live here alone with josh, i no longer feel alone in this world, i really do feel like i have a man in my life, one who really does care about me.

finally, huh? :)