waiting list

ok
i know me
and i know how i get my heart set on things
and when they dont happen i get sad or upset

1) i really hope he can get a sitter for jeans party

2) i hope he does not have his daughter for his entire week of his vacation (and it works out for me when i have to drop josh and pick him up at scout camp)

3) when he has days off when his daughter is at the mom's i hope that he has time for me.

basically in that order, even though #3 could be today.
he is great, and i am so excited to be with him, i just fear that being with him will be the challenge
i suppose if he wants to be with me too, we will make it happen, but he does not strike me as the type to set the schedule with the ex. i think it is set for him and he works with it.
and that is fine, because he loves his daughter and he is a great father and i am sure she is getting a better upbringing with him than with her. and children come first, always.
and i am still in the trial period, which is also good for his child....

but.....

so i am getting ready and in the back of my head i am hoping he wants to see me tonight and tomorrow night because i think those are the days she is with her mom. but it could be that being a weekday/school night so to speak, he might pass on it/pass on me.
i hope not.

oh well.... back to my hair.... i wish it did not take so long to get straight. i am always happy with it when i am done but getting there especially in the heat is a drag.... and then if i work all that time and i go out the door into rain... it pisses me off.