shower

finally the day of the shower and i cant wait for it to be over
i hope i have enough food
i hope i dont have too much food
i hope i dont get into a fight with my sister
hope i can figure out how to keep the crock pots plugged in... probably not though.

more importantly, the realtor
he spent all yesterday cutting lawns etc. when he called me around 5 he said he was going to get his daughter she was at her friends for an hour while he showered
i said one hour, why not ask for two?
he laughed and said he cant do that
i said you dont want to do it
he said no it was not that he does not want to do it he just does not want to impose
said he would call me back after he was done at his buddy's and then getting her but he never called again
i tried and left no msg and then called after 8 and left a msg saying i hope he sleeps well and if he had called me when he dropped her off i could have been there by the time he was done with his shower and we could have spent a little time with each other
(and she lives there, she knows he takes showers, why did she have to be dropped at a friends for an hour?)

i dont get it
seriously i do not think he is seeing anyone else
and i dont think he has any options to watch his daughter unless it drops in his lap
but i wonder how much he really wants to be seeing me at all
last week was great, it was fun, he told me he took his profile down and he was so grateful that i came down to spend time with him
now i just feel like a bother to him
i seriously dont get it

patrick said yesterday maybe he is distancing himself .... basically to get rid of me because he does not have time for me
i truly hope that is not true.

so now i am stuck waiting again and i hate waiting for a call.
if i dont hear from him by 9 i will call again....
this sucks for me because he is such a great guy and i can never see him or talk to him for more than 10 minutes on the phone.
again i ask my self why would god let me meet someone who seems so great to me,and make the situation so confusing like this.
maybe it is a lesson in patience, well if it is, it is not working too well so far.