confidence? what's that?

somebody need to tell me
on a regular basis
not to doubt myself

(i know, i know, you do already, but i guess i need to listen more)

i know that i am a strong confident woman in everyday daily life
when it comes to matters of the heart i am a gooey spongy mess
letting every doubt in my head take charge

so i called at 5:15, he answered, was fine, fun, happy to hear from me
i asked him what were the chances that i could take him out to dinner
he said slim because he had his daughter and an appointment at 6:30
but he said that if he could he would take me out to dinner :)
and if anything changed he would call me immediately.

these were good words for me to hear

and i know that he has to pack and wash the dog and do all sorts of things for tomorrow.... so i completely understand.
i need to get back to how i felt the first 4-5 days that i knew him
confident
i need to not doubt myself
i am a great person
i am a great catch
he should be lucky, and hopefully he does feel lucky
to be with me

i have to get breezy back
because breezy is confident
i had it
look back about a week or so
it was there

i know that alot of my self doubt and feeling weepy lately was josh being gone too long
it was much longer than i have ever experienced and i missed him alot
even though we fight like cats and dogs
i need him in my life and it was like he was just gone without a trace
it is good to have him back
he will be gone again in a few days and i hopefully wont miss him as much

putting my week together
going to be with laurel tomorrow
going to r.i. sunday
monday thru wed i will be with sally
thurs will see anne and maybe kim too
not sure about friday, maybe mom and i will go to lunch for her b-day
saturday i get josh
and sunday we have sherry's picnic

the week will be over before i know it
and i plan to keep in contact with the realtor as well.