its my party and i'll cry if i want to

well this is a day that my worst fears take over

all day long the realtors phone has gone directly to vm

well, he told me yesterday that he was having alot of trouble with it so maybe it is dead or lost or something like that

OR maybe he is hurt or sick or in the hospital.... and they turned the phone off.

this is what i hate cause i have no idea where he is or how he is.

i hope the phone is just dead or lost and he gets a new one tomorrow

or i hope i hear from him tomorrow.

i cannot believe that he is avoiding my calls, it is not ringing at all so it is not like there is one ring and he is hitting ignore.... it does not ring at all.

i hope he is ok

i went to my party that jean and gene threw for me and rich today, it was a nice party, i helped out which kept my mind off of matters at hand

i had a nice talk with sally too, it is great that we can connect

the party was fun and friendly, the music was great and josh got to play too.

rich seemed to have a really nice time too which was great.

a few people gave me gifts and cards which i did not expect at all so that was an added bonus. it is so nice to be remembered, it is really tough when you dont have a significant other who remembers your b-day and treats you special for that day.... mine is non existant today.... i hope to god he is alright.

so thank you jean and gene for the party, it was great and i loved it.

josh had fun too.