worried

ok now i am fine
i know i will see him when i see him
it is weird the way the feelings come over me
it is weird the way i am worse right after i have seen him.... but then i just fall back into the normal every day thing
i have not heard from him since yesterday morning, it was a great conversation so i have no worries at all about us
but i worry cause i think people are dead or hurt when i dont hear from them
i called again this morning but got vm, but it went to 3 rings today which is good, that is normal for his phone, not like that weird 2 ring thing yesterday.... who knows what that was all about.
so i leave in a few minutes to get josh and grammy,she wants to go to the bank while he is at his lesson
i got my hair done today and wil asked to take a picture of it, makes me happy that he likes his work that much to capture it.... :)
if i did not have such a frumpy face i would post a pic here, cause the cut is really good, but the circles under my eyes make me look 43!!!! argh!!!

after i am done with mom and josh if i have not heard from the realtor yet i will contact laurel and help her do some sorting and cleaning out for a while. it will keep me busy and keep my mind of the fact that he has not called.
like i said, i have no worries about how he feels about me, i am worried something is wrong.
i have always been like this, ask jean, she will tell you how when i dont hear from her i have to find out if she is ok.

i think i would be crushed if something happened to him, first because i would never know, he says that 'they' would call me cause i am in his phone.... i dont know who 'they' are, and he probably has a million people in his phone.
and second because this is so great so far, i just want it to grow and continue..... so i worry all the time that something is going to screw it up.

so i will get ready to go and i hope that he calls soon so i can rest easy.