dreams

i had horrible dreams again last night
just got up and wanted to write before i forget them
i was being chased or in a hurry or on a race of some sort
i was at the beach for part of it and my car got out on the sand and i was in a hurry and kept getting stuck... that was at the end of the sleep but there were more chases earlier in the night... but i cant remember what they were.... all i know is i am NOT rested and feel crappy and very tired.
first day of school jitters for ME? ha!

maybe it is more like i am chasing this rainbow (that is the realtor) and i can never catch him! ha!
but i will..... it is a matter of time before she goes to her mom's :)

i stayed up late to see the news to see if the scouts were on it for colin's eagle project and i could not get to sleep for along time, i tossed and turned
i feel like crap today
i have to work and go to court in westboro and then to the worcester office.... argh
i feel like shit
i hope i feel better after my shower
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i do feel a little better, i was really groggy from the dreams but i wanted to write about it before i forgot
by the way colin's eagle project was not on the 11:00 news.... double argh

maybe it is a rainbow that i am chasing.... i cant understand why it is that i met such a great guy who has an impossible custody schedule.... i believe things happen for a reason.... still trying to figure this one out
i do know that when we are together we are both really happy.... maybe that is it.... simply happiness.
and teaching me patience
because if i can wait, and be patient
in the end it will be wonderful

who knows!