spent the day with the professor.
got lost on the way, was about to turn around and go home i was so mad at myself with the way things were going... but then i got there and everything was fine.
met him for coffee.... he is a very insightful, intelligent, sincere, kind, genuine man. oh and wordy, very very wordy. in a good way.
i just got home and it is 11:30 or so.
it was a 2 hour ride and i was dreading the ride home in the dark. but i was fine... jean talked to me most of the way.
while we were together we went for coffee, walked on the beach, sat on the breakwater, went to dinner, went to his house..... and talked more than i think i have ever talked in my life.
there was connection... not like i had with eeyore... this was real connection.
he is 48, scares me a bit.... i know it is only 5 years difference but still.... and he is not what you might call a hottie, does not really scare me but the fact that i mention it makes me feel shallow.
but the sincerity, the honesty, the connections in the conversations that we had today were far more important that appearances.
so now i am confused and torn.... i hate it when i feel like this after a first date.... it is deceiving... i have to go back for a second and a third to see if it is really what i think it is.... a mature, real, relationship... or the start of one anyway.
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