i have slept very good the last two nights and slept late as well... i think i needed to catch up.
today i have myself immersed already (so early in the day) in projects.... while waiting for my computer to decide it wanted to sign onto the internet (and it took many different avenues to get that to work) i decided to go thru my clothes in my closet and put away things that are too big (just in case i get fat in the future, could happen, has happened, good idea to plan ahead) and put away all my long sleeved items and give away things i have not put on in over a year.
so after changing my sheets and flipping my mattress (by myself which was a DAUNTING task, thought i was going to be crushed... they would have to break down the doors and find me suffocated under the mattress in the corner of my bedroom) i have all my clothes all over my bed... rummaging thru them to see what's what.
when i am done i am sure i will feel a sense of accomplishment, i usually do.
later today i will probably go to lunch or dinner with josh and maybe go to the driving range to hit a bucket of balls and get some sun.
i am thinking of my state of mind and where i am in the relationship game. still i am feeling very good about myself and where i am at. i have definite ideas of what i want in a relationship... but one really important thing is that i want to be taken out places... i dont want to spend every evening at my house or his house... a girl could get a complex. i might think that he is embarrassed to be seen with me or maybe he has a girlfriend or wife that might see us... and then there is also the other option... maybe it is purely physical and he is not attracted to me emotionally and intellectually... i need it all.
i am not in any way referring to the professor because it is far too soon to judge that. i am referring in general to any man i ever dated.
i look forward to being lifted over the physical attraction and have the other types of attraction as well.
i know i deserve it all.
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